happy little things in life.

today i was actually really glad about my decision to attend the bowler's meeting and feeling so happy to be close friends with alvin. glad he came even if it was just to see SJ lol.

today meeting made me feel tht ppl actually still remains the same and laughter really brightens everyone's mood. particularly i got to see my fav captain and mjc bowlers. LOL and all the secrets we shared.
WHO EVER KNEW!

and seriously ali guessed abt cal was so .. er... i dunno luh. but when i heard she got attached, i was really happy for her. beauty is really in the eye's of the beholders.

so fast forward to the moment when vin asked if i wanted to chill out. i felt like it and his car was shiok, so i gladly say yes since he wld send me hm no matter how late we chatted. the best part. WE CAN CLICK.

like totally. its so shiok to be able to talk to a guy w/o restraints because u simply have no other motives. which was said by vin. so we were lamenting on the fact tht we are now and STILL SINGLE. well, i am single just tht i broke up. but doesn't matter .

so we were deciding how are we able to attract the opposite sex. and i found out tht since we were both having the same wavelength , i told him tht what we look for in partners are definitely the same. it is we want them to be wise. wise is actually very board base. like for him he doesn't like bimbos and i cant believe if i can ever hook up with a non mature guy who doesn't think abt their futures.

so we both agreed tht we look for partners to complement each other. like i wouldn't like a bubbly guy and wld totally prefer a cool and quiet guy. so we were saying. if we try so hard to attract others, like being totally not ourselves. like me not being vocal. -_-

oh btw i have decided tht from this very moment onwards, i will not say vulgarities thanks to the guy who said it so oud it sounds uncalled for and immature and makes him look bad.
i am serious. i will always have tht image in my mid if i were to spew out vulgarities.

so vin was saying why not be ourselves and take it as though we had no motive at all. cause me and him get tongue tied, or start blabbering nonsense. but then again, what if they liked us and they think we don't like them and give up! espically girls who wants the guys to make the first move.

DIE~~
FOREVER SINGLE LOR.
like what vin said. lol.
he dam funny he was like how come girls dont give him a chance?
MUAHHAHA

oh and vin logic was since all humans are wired up the same way, we are able to love each other . ONLY IF YOU WANT TO. so it IS POSSIBLE. haha.

so i was asking him. wld he find it weird if he wld to suddenly like a super neutral friend. i find it weird. like , how can u SUDDENLY LIKE THIS PERSON. oh and i said he like guy accidentally and we broke into laughters once again since he said he now need to be gay cause no girls like him. LOL. anyway, we just keep laughing.

so i concluded, i dont really need to feel uncomfortable with the guys i like, just be normal, no motive. life wld be easier . and dont relationships hold me back? maybe me and vin are fated to be singles forever. LOL. then we each die tgt ah. so ke lian.

anyway if u all think vin is ugly and dumb. he is actually quite handsome and he is super smart! straight As for a lvl pls, and is going to become a doctor in 5 yrs. LOL. i know right. why the hell isnt he attached? only heaven knows.

and this is when he looks dam cui. =X



and this song is dedicated to alvin teo because this is his fav emo song. lol . i feel for u because i am with u.

-bad things happen for a reason.
JNZL

get it right

this song is dedicated to me.

to remind me that no matter how many times i may try and fail, do know that the only time you are a failure when u stop trying.

so on every opportunity i got, i always wish for me to be wiser and to be a stronger woman than i was. it kinda came true and u know what all ppl say abt wisdom right?

you can't get enough. =p




JNZL

wondering

when i saw his inbox, lol in class when we all peaked . one of my class mates was like woah he is applying for DBS careers. blah blah. seriously this kind of fucked up guy with fucked up attitude who only knows how to fucking leech from me and others deserve to be working just a clerk. tsk. so disturbed. as in DBS, hello obviously they are not going to take u in DUMB! like seriously, unless ur relative is some big ass there then maybe. because ppl in NUS , NTU are clever than u by x12208394  and they are so many people there. and what ?! u are not even completing ur degree yet. i cant even stand your voice when u voice out your worthless opinion in class its just irritating. i rather hear the dino sneeze than u talking. even academic outside, u are so hopeless. yucks. WHEN I SAID NO, STOP acting like you are so desperate. just get other girls kay, cause i am not ur type. tsk.
oh well.
JNZL

love the way

i love the way you know my passwords and all. like i have nth to hide.
i love the way of thinking to give u a call while my water for my maggi mee boils.

love the way you wld think of me.
but i hate the way we are apart. =/
JNZL

status quo

STATUS QUO

whoever invented this is simply awesome.
i like my life as it is right now. having people who cares about me, although i still think lee ming en is out of my reach right now because i am too busy with my work.

heard from my friend tht he was from SIM and he got out of it and went to my uni because  he finds it hard to study there because he said there is like a fashion show and its all about clubbing every other day and it was TOO HAPPENING. well, i hope ming en would be able to cope well there. =?

but anyways when she enters SIM maybe we cld have an opportunity to study tgt. YAY
so lets remain status quo for now. i like how it feels to be a super best friend. ;)

busy busy busy. =/ oh well whats new right.
JNZL

diet

enough with all the emotions bs.

now i am thinking about slimming down. yes yes i know i have been saying since eons ago.
but hey! i HAVE ACTUALLY BEEN PUTTING IN EFFORT.

except for fri night which i had 3 boxes of durians. fine i know i have very little self control. if i crave for smthing . tht bloody food item will be stuck in my head and i cant sleep well.

i swear.
so my durian craze is over since i had an overdose. and YA i know it is filled with .. fine wait i go find. since i ate 3 bloody boxes. I SAFELY ASSUME THAT I PRACTICALLY ATE A WHOLE DURIAN.


according to this website
http://caloriecount.about.com/calories-durian-i9422?size_grams=602.0
885 CALORIES. sula habase.wadever
fat is ard 35.1g and 161 calories?
OMGE..
but pls. got see the nutrition grade. ITS grade A. means the best nutrition . good for body.

anyway, from tomorrow onwards i am going to cook baby carrots EVERY SINGLE DAY. because i love them to the max. but i need mushroom sauce too lei. later i go google .
 machiam cannot everyday eat maggie mee right.

although its yummy to me, its bad food.
so i am gonna eat chicken breast meat too. eh wait. tht means i can eat KFC?
-.-

ya thts abt it for my diet. i cant drink food replacement luh. it dehydrates me so much my skin on my face started peeling horribly. when i stop it goes away. =(

cant go the easy way. anyway, eating healthy is the CORRECT WAY WHAT. its like i am changing my lifestyle permanently but slowly. of course i am gonna eat my fav fruits luh plus my daily dose of yummy berri lite yogurt not so convenient as it is located at simei but ai ya. not tht far also.

plus i am gonna exercise one hr everyday. drink water loads( which i have alrdy been doing)
no more gong cha.

NOOOO~!!!!~!@
TSK. i am very sad. maybe i can satisfy it with yogurt or sushi.

i am still in LOVE WITH RAMEN at ion orchard. and i am still loving sushi.hmmm i need to think out of a way to implement these awesome food into my diet plan.

and i am going to religiously apply cream to my legs and arms because i cannot afford ugly scars and i will stop scratching and i will treat my face better.
means go for mthly facials luh.

actually why i do all these right is actually a sort of requirement.
working towards tht dream job of mine. before starting my bank job of course.
but after i did my research . kinda sad. because they are so stringent about their skin test! wa piang. if this cant work then i got to buy the dermablend concealer or covermakeup whatever it is to cover my scars before going to interview. =(

my chicken pok marks on my face how. not tht bad what. its cute ok. -.-
it defines me.LOL.

k la, talk so much tmr i still got to work. shall count my calories now.
and btw i am effing hungry now. the urge to eat maggiee mee is soo there but i cant. =(


JNZL

secret

everyone has a secret /s that they really do not wish anyone that matter know. but the thing is when someone matters to you, you would tend to want to know everything about that person. be it good or bad or shocking.

now the thing is you know you shld just love the person for who he or she is right now because they are no longer what they were in the past. thats why ppl call it the past. they change . so why must one find out everything.

let's see. maybe ppl do it because they feel safer ? no really. if you know everything about that person, like everything darn thing, you wouldnt fear ppl suddenly coming up to you saying" eh you know xxx is ...." and also you eliminate the horrible feeling of ambiguity . the unknown is so scary because you dont know what lies ahead.

but never have people who wanted the whole truth thought of the person's feelings when digging out their skeletons.

and when it is their turn, they freak out too.

so hell to those who keep saying that we shld move on and forget our past when you have alrdy known their god dam past. -___-

i too have secrets which i hope no one that matters know.
well, then ppl also have another saying of there is no eternal secret in this world.

ppl keep secrets to protect themselves as well as others who matters. think about it. if it doesnt hurt anyone that really matters, you really think they wouldn't want to tell you if u ever asked?

dont be stupid.
then again what happens when you need to know the whole truth to embrace the person's flaws and all. see, its full of irony.


JNZL