You see, guys may not understand what emotional turmoil we woman go thru.
Oh talking about it, just a reminder, NOT ALL WOMEN understands each other.
like how i couldn't understand a 16 year old girl who told me she would hit on a friend ex because her happiness comes first, and goes on blabbering about it depends on how nice the person treats her, she then she wonders WHY PEOPLE DISLIKE HER.
so back to the topic when my heart finds a connection with girls who happen to go thru something that i can understand, i felt that i need to grow in a certain way that plays with the mind.
it doesn't mean growing to be a wiser person, but in a way it means growing up in a way that u understand how most human beings work and use it to make your life easier, to get things done, to make people react the way you want them to.
Wiser means experience built up from scratch. i got to admit, i cant have that without first opening my eyes.
Truth to be told, my eyes went WAYYYYYY OPEN after i met my second ex and it opened even more after some screwed up things happens recently.
I finally get to understand that i am somehow living in a world of my own fantasy whereby people dont backstab each other, love and cherish each other and will forever be loyal.
I just wonder why god doesnt create the world i have in mind where everybody is at peace and love blossoms. why do god create people with FUCKED UP MINDSETS which hurts people and they are still fucked up even though they are no longer young.
so all in all, to those people whom know deep down that they have done some sinful actions or they are just fucked up because they choose to be, please allow me to stab your heart with needles and put salt in your wounds, and please do look at my puppy eyes telling you how SORRY i am and oh please do accept those needles and salt because you are suppose to be strong , independent and just because society doesn't really condemn such actions.
You people in this world thinks that whatever things that they do that hurts people so much are alright just because they have this "i can't please everybody" mindsets but bitches about it when it happens on you. Will you think that it's ok when you are the receiving end, think of all the things that can be stolen from you .JUST LET THIS SINK IN FOR A MOMENT
JNZL
