Saturday, December 22, 2012

Belated bday post

I am lying on my tummy typing this post right now, listening to some shooting atas feel music which Is so nice I wondered why do I always listen to cliche songs.
Alvin introduced to me to this app named 8tracks. Apparently it's popular in the UK where he studies as. Medicine student . :)

So my 21st ended and it was a nice 21st, although on the midnight of my birthday, I was standing in the drizzling rain waiting for someone who I thought would never showed up till 1am plus . It's amazing how one can push their limits to no end. Like really, somehow I feel like I m stretching like a dam elastic rubber band. The gifts I received although not many but it was nice to have gifts. Yay

Although I expected one significant present from my parents like a traditional necklace, it's ok it never came because I knew very well the mistakes I foolishly made to make myself unable to receive such things. Still so sad that I can't even buy it on my own because I still owe ppl $$$$.
The batam trip which was intended to be my bday trip started AWFUL. Thank heavens it ended well.

Sometimes I thought to myself if I am really expecting too much from others. But u know, I also unexpectedly do.
Oh man, 3 of my close friends have Prada wallets! I also want lol. -.- ok it's not a necessity. Maybe I shall buy it only when I have the money to earn it myself. I really hope I can work soon! So that I can enjoy luxury for myself. My on smartphone to start with ....

Ah well. Shall leave such thoughts till new year resolutions.

In my love life, I feel I am being lied to. But when confronted, the assumed truth was being denied totally. Promising and all... Deep down, of course my rosé tinted vision lessened and I do not wish to discuss it further hence I verbally agreed and of course not lying , I really wished and wanted it to be the truth. But hey, too much drama in the tvs and real life advises made me know better. Promises made may just be a way to escape and to falsely reassure those that allow them to be reassured. Some ask so why do I still continue? Deep down I needed change but my mental shouts to me he won't. So in conclusion I just want to stick ard longer.

Anyway, happy birthday Joey. When your heart is in your dreams, no request is too extreme. When u wish on a star, makes no difference who u are.









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