mother fucker

for the intended person who loves soccer.

i went online, abandoned my kpop mama show and came in to gmail chat.
suddenly u saw ur fav soccer live show like mine is not.

then u asked to call me back 30 mins later i just said leave it.
but no... u keep asking the same qn for like 10 times and i replied u the same ans 10 times.
then u said i kp.

seriously.

after you refuse to ans my call and even went offline. deeming me irritating but u are so HORRIBLE.

JNZL

its gonna be alright

i still feel happiest with my secondary school close friends.
i am hopping to meet them on new year . omg why is it soo dam hard.

go to pan pacific to slp over for a night. watch fireworks, play games talk nonsense.....

haha omg. our face changed. dont you agree?
JNZL

doesnt matter aint more

just wanted to called for some comfort but got a cold reply.
just wanted to ask for help cause i am scared and dunno what to do.
but i just got an angry reply.
called because you are the first one i'd turned to but no u hated it.
called because i hope u did cared but no you just want me to hang up.
since when i got this clingy i also didnt realise.
called because i was hoping you would say" its ok and help me "

all you wanted was to sleep.
it is wrong to want to sleep? nope.
is it wrong to feel pissed ? nope.
is it wrong to just let me decide when i said i couldnt decide and asked me to call other people? nope.

its all my fault.its all my fault. its all my fault. its all my fault.its all my fault.
dont worry. i know. you are too tired too busy.

u said i am a grown up already.
so i dont really know what are you there for. oh ya does it matter? nope cause its all my own wrongdoing.
do i deserve it? i dunno. i tried. yup not enough not showing. its my fault.

dont you feel happy seeing me helpless but will try my best not to turn to you anymore?
i know you are.

you made me felt like i was one irritating bitch that kept calling.
i am sorry for what i did. but dont worry. it is all my fault.

i should turn into someone who blames everything on myself.
its me its me its me.

i pictured a beautiful world. but its me that made it seem ugly.
what can i ask for ? nothing. i will get nothing in return.
yes the picture is beautiful but yet so sad isnt it? because it will only live in our minds of us . people who have yet grown up. growing up is right. stubborn? no. wanted more guidance but you couldnt offer me that.

do i find others then my beautiful friend?

JNZL

drift

i drift u drift we all drift apart someway somehow, fast or slow doesnt matter we'll still drift.

so exciting to see two friends liking someone.
i know i wont get to know who but seeing them having one-sided love reminds me of how love started.
i hope they get love back too.

jia you L AND D.
=)
JNZL

If only I got the power to feel what others are feeling then I would go like this.

"I touched his hand and felt his pain. Ah, he too went through this pain which I went through but I can never see it because I am preoccupied with another"

Yet another sad story of someone loving someone quietly and even though the pain of the other is no less than the pain he feels,he is being neglected. Is it all worth while I would ask, and he will say it not in the power of my mind to decide.my heart can't stop and I shall say you're a fool, then again who isn't .

JNZL

Evil thoughts frm no where

A simple thought manifested
In my brain

Just have to say it.

If i cry, you will cry too. If i fall u will fall too. If i die you will die too and if i go down, you will go down with me too.

I am not evil or mean or anything. I just suddenly thought of it.

Not any revenge too. Just a thought of why ppl are always grttig away with their own deeds and why am I always the one trying so hard to please everybody. This sucks big time and guess what, whoever said friends are reliable, they forgot about the word change.

Fuck this shit. I hate people who changes .

JNZL