temptations once again

The devil is here to bring me to the forbidden side again.
thanks to the angels which bless me with homework and more tests allows me to stop side-tracking and start focusing on my initial plan.

to get good grades..
Bu then again, the devil would never back down without a fight.

John W. DeForest:

It is not the great temptations that ruin us; it is the little ones.

JNZL

to die for list

hermes lindy bag!

i know it is super out of reach if you guys know what the real price is.

if even i saved for a decade i would not have enough spare cash to buy this $12,000 bag.

yes i am not joking.

this retails at this price

so i am going to buy a lookalike bag. the design is awesome and a REALLY to die for bag.

just the the house fly who kept sucking the sharkfin soup left over even when my heavy cup is right on top of it.

i think it thinks that the sharkfin soup is something to die for.

literally~

and the look alike bag may cost a fraction of what this real holy bag cost,

maybe $500+ oh well, at least i get to have the geeze of it.

EH I THINK HERMES BAG can become marriage gift lor!

maybe thts what newyokers do. hohoho

NEXT TO DIE-FOR-BAG

SPOTTED.

this CELINE luggage bag is awesome!

well just that it cost abt $2350!!!

i love this bag which is still oh-so -far from me but still within reach. unlinke the first one u know. 

this bags looks so right to me. who could refuse such a bag if someone were to give it to u as a gift!

the miu miu collection!

L.A.M.B. Darjeeling Bangalor Purse

which now retails at $400+

haha! now imagine a bag this so luxurious but yet so oh-understated.

 this classic  Miu Miu Mateleasse Handbag  is still the office lady bombshell bag.

in time you will understand why it will look oh so good on you!

1500! 

BY THE WAY! the new trends i see is now having leather pleats bags.

i have one too! cheapo but still good charles and keith bag.

will upload photo if got to the time too, but keep a sharp eye on other fashion bags!

cause the pleats are in! (and are here to stay?)

these two "paper bags"

loewe above and 

PROENZA SCHOULER PAPER-EFFECT LEATHER BAG

these two grows on you..

till then stop drooling and stop imagining yourself with these back. or else they will haunt you! hahaa

JNZL

forever

every time when i watch a drama and manage to cry is because my mind will automatically picture you in this situation and every time my mind does that i will cry.

a simple reason which took me soo long to realize.
i really cannot live without you.

you know couples always had trouble thinking what they would etch on their rings.
some would be so chim i wouldn't bother to understand.

but you know what i have always wanted to be on my ring would be
words like : forever together, eternal.. ( things like that)

because ultimately its the simplest words in life that we tend to forget.
we always forget to live for ourselves and we always forget how truly important someone is to you until you lost them.

i know i may be dramatic but you know if my life were to be someone who keeps everything to herself. i might really go mental which means that is why i am always so vocal.

finding a person who is able to sacrifice everything for you only happens in drama or drastic situations .
however for normal human life, finding someone who is able to take in everything you got and still willing to stay put with you, you better not lose sight of him cause a second one might never come along again.

i am so happy i have found mine.
although i am still resistant to whatever i need to sacrifice, living without him is still unspeakable.
past exp which might make me mental if i have to go through it again.
young, teenage. so my adult life will not let any of it happen right.

the thing i fear most.
people leaving me.

its not a fear that i can overcome, even with help.
so the word forever means so so so so so much more to me than you can ever realise.

so i would sacrifice things that mean so much to me just to be with you.
because no matter what leaving you is still ultimately the worst feeling i would never want to have.

this is not an emo post.
i just really want to type out my thoughts and my true feelings .

( you know, now i imagine myself alone on rock19 or on a bench looking at life doing its magic, i can feel myself saying " ah... you know no matter how life hard may be now, looking at the sea, the people , you will realise that someone is always looking out for you and is always concern about you. no matter how lonely you feel, no matter how life brings you down, there is always someone who will be willingly to love you unconditionally and with that, continue to live a life that is worthwhile looking back "



yours truly
jnzl.