keep things under wraps

There are so many things in my life that i have to keep it under wraps.
until when nature thinks the time is right, people will naturally know.

i always wanted to show off the things i have and not be secretive but i guess this is really not happening to me in this life.

mostly its about emotions and expressing them.
but i gave away my secrets to mel which currently knows everything which is going on. well, i am just a very private person and i just don't feel safe telling others when they are so judgmental.

i need a person who looks 2 sides of everything. people have been telling me such negative comments that even i feel negative. but i hate it.

i always love looking at the positive outlook. so many articles kept saying the bad but hey! some were so positive. everyone looks at beauty differently.

but mel knows deep down its really deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep (ok u get it)
down inside me that stills stand still.

like i am only giving my outer shell and some of my insides.
but again, i can't tell you about it because you will again reprimand me so what the hell for right.

its not wounds but its kind of like deep down i know, its still there refuse to evaporate. wth .
so i can only think and of course, show the world that i am moving on. -___-

i don't think time can make it go away or make it fade but its so horrible for me to be like this. like one sided. so of course keep it deep down inside me.

like people always say why be someone else second when u can be someone else first right?
(tht's crap la)

but the main point is, while waiting for something that is not very possible , i shall... enjoy things that are possible.

anw, weird people are attracted to me i swear. not weird but extreme ppl. who are nice and sweet but...
LOL WHEN I TELL U , THEN U WILL UNDERSTAND.

till then, remember. keep it under wraps. hide hide hide u know?


JNZL