blind or optimistic

there is a fine line between choosing to be blind or just being optimistic.

today i went through alot and i realise that we may want to end things and live simply, but deep down we still want it and hope it doesnt end. whta irony i know.

but , to make things up, at least my FEMALE INSTINCTS ARE ALWAYS RIGHT.
some website told me to always trust my instinct instead to doubting it and act on it. WELL I ACTED ON IT ALRIGHT. and i am correct.

exposing someone and well, i felt disappointment but maybe after what melaine said, i have faith in you once again.

i will always hope that everything in the end will always be alright.
oh btw, i prayed to god to help me, or in a way to guide me to the correct path and i prayed that the other person would realise the faults the person made.

to instill guilt because its needed. our conscience will always sort of haunts us.

some things are left to be unseen and unsaid all for the better good.

DEAR GOD I PRAY TO YOU TO LET ME LIVE A BLISSFUL LIFE. IF I NEED NOT KNOW, DO NOT LET ME KNOW NOR LET ME SEE NOR LET ME REALISE ANYTHING. But if the bitterest truth is so essential, i pray that i can accept it and wipe my tears off and i have someone whom i can pour my sorrows to. because the sweetest lies can always cause a world of war inside me.

like the old saying goes:"what eyes don't see, the heart doesn't feel"


JNZL

A prayer

What I learnt is that when I can look into no one anymore because they are insufficient , they taught me to look up to you.

I would like to say a heart felt prayer to you.

I pray that for all the sins I commuted, I pray for you to forgive me. For I am just a mortal who is also insufficient.

I pray that you give me the will the determination to study even thought have sinned and when I keep having flashbacks of regret, I pray to you that you would help me , guide me to see the light.

I also pray that no one around me has to go through what I did and I pray for their health and happiness no matter where they are or what they do .

I pray for you to help me face for what may come in the future. I pray that everything will be ok, also that they would not find fault and let it slide and that my parents would accept my mistakes.

Thank you for blessing me with friends that helped me overcome this. Although its not over but what my friend always say that everything happens for a reason, for what I can't see I know that it will always mean something.

Just that god, I am so afraid, I am pretty lost and I am hanging in suspense. Can't I just fast forward to the future?

Regret

I regret doing it. I always regret so many things. Today I think I could cry myself to death.

It's not love.

I don't know why I am so fucking impulsive and I need to move on because my next paper is tmr.

I can't bring myself to overcome this .
Mel said:" it's ok any problem has a solution to it, you are strong that's why the problem was given to you"
Just pray to god and everything will be ok.