depress?

i found another info tht says this camera worth S$319!!

wth happened to the $199.99 price? argh!! stupid sk nv research properply.
its ok at least now i know. -.-

today was suppose to be quite a chiong day. but my mood was totally destroyed by the montip girl who came to ask if i got pay for the hairband.

1) today , my mum bought it and the person even gave her a new one. like wth.
2) so i went into the shop again to look for new stuff to buy like badges , bags, etc la. (without wallet)
3) so she thought i steAL.. fuck. and i did not steal the shiny band can! well at least i did not steal tht!

made me fucking paranoid and i lost focus to the MAX. well , quite depressed suddenly. so unable to study. i could not even breathe properly. tht was how bad it got.

my body is getting weak. espically my mind and my poor heart.i shld start eating healthly as the life situation is not goin to make it any better.

THE DREAM..

had a freaking weird dream.
i suddenly dreamt tht i was in tpss and in a grp going to a magical land to seek for something . jeremey frm 4e1 was in and decided to back out. so our grp understands as it was a tough and dangerous mission.

then brian frm mjc was also in. when we were abt to set off, we just can't find him! then i went to ask jolene. she asked if i really want to know.i said yes. she ran, i think to show me where he hisd himself.

it was in a complicated library. because we need time, chong sian and a malay guy took others for a run while we find brian. i told them in the lib.

then suddenly, i heard brian voice sounding frm my head.

"WHY DID U TELL JOEY?! DON'T U KNOW SHE IS VERY INDECISIVE ? what if she told the rest?"
then i remembered jolene disappeared after running to the lib leading me. jolene kept quiet. i visualised yin mei. keeping brian accomapny.then suddenly jolene shoted to me to stop finding as they rather have friends who hug love and kiss them rather to have friends who antis them.

all i wanted was to ask how is him. i was so afraid he got kidnapped or something. then my head resounded u are not reliable remember the time after chinese oral? u said to alicia tht u didn't wan to go but ppl just need to push u a little to follow them. U DON'T HAVE A MIND OF UR OWN! not trustworthy!

yup tht's it. what a heart-wrenching dream. woke up , my heart was beating very fast. can't seem to forget this dream. as though this is wad ppl wanted to tell me all these while.

ah well , let's head back to books who will nv scold u a single word.=(

theveryreasoniamparanoidisbecauseireallydislikemyselfandisafraidofeverything

thecausemaybetoomanyscarsbeinginflictedonme.
i'msorry.
icantakenomoreshit..iamfrailandneedslotsofprotectionnow.
pleaseprotectme.
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