hair

i finally went to cut my whole head!!

yup yup!
the results are not obvious to other ppl except me cause they dun touch my hair 24/7

but to me, like woah! all the disgusting tangles are gone and it feels lighter.
hahaha..

oh oh.. my fringe is less thick now.
bought another cotton jacket.(dark brown)

tomorrow is soooo exciting!!
NO SCHOOL! anw, studying with bestie.

maybe with cal and jia and if i am lucky enough, greg will come along.
but they like nv inform me of anything lei.

SIAN..
ok, TOMORROW watching DANCE ,SUBARU.. lalalala

i love JYJY.
JNZL

vjc team spirit booo

NEWS FLASH!!!

One VJ soccer player scored a goal. He ran towards to our stands and boo-ed at us.

VJ coach slapped him in the face.

VJ scored their deciding goal on the last 3mins, after which all the injury patterns prominently appeared.

Out of a sudden, one VJ player dropped to the ground as though he was pregnant. He whined and whined, insisting people to carry him out of the fields.

Our MJ teachers went down there personally to shift his ass so that the game could carry on.

3-2 to VJ. Congratulations
JNZL

lies

PPL LIKE TO LISTEN TO LIES.

i am serious.
sometimes, i lie to people because the truth just simply won't be accepted by them.
they think it is ridiculous.

so actually telling a lie makes them believe that u are telling the truth.
i can do that!

telling lies is even easier than peeing.
so if ppl insist on hearing those lies, then lies i shall tell then.


STRENGTH IS BUT

JUST A MERE MEASURE

OF HOW WELL U CAN

HIDE YOUR PAIN.


doesn't mean i dun show that i am in pain means i am lying.
fuck you L.

i really hate it when ppl just dun believe me when i am telling the truth.
it may seem un-believable, or simply too fake.

BUT ITS THE DAM BLOODY TRUTH.

JNZL

i'm already there

THE SONG THAT MADE ME CRIED.

i played it 3 times on rong quan mp3 and i cried 3 times.
i think i imagined tht i was tht guy tht's why i can feel it so much.
JNZL

cramming in progress

The time has come for me to start my sleeping engine.

dusts sput out and it took several tries to get it started.
after today, thanks to jia jia , cal, rq, i hav successfully started my engine.

i touched physics.
good start. i will start to wake up early to do work.

mid-years are ard the corner.
heck with the meeting of parents.
heck it.

boos to my cough.

anw, m.e and me just suddenly have the thought of swimming. i can't wait for holidays to come man.
then we can start studying like crazy ppl all over again.

i am starting now.
love u jia jia for ur latest post.
although its so lame that i laugh to myself but its so dam motivating la!!!!!

psst: luckily greg doesn't know my blog existed. or else , omgosh, he might jolly well thinks i am a lunatic or something.

anw, love studying with you and calvin.
lame and fun.

LEE MING EN!!!
when can we ever start studying together. T-T

one last thing.
I NEED TO BUY A JACKET AND A WALLET.
m.e accompany me k . =DD



JNZL

feel my love

actually, i just realize this and i just have to note it down and tell the whole wide world abt it.

many things that we have done are the things that u hope it comes back to you.
but what if it doesn't?

u would probably be secretly disappointed.
i thought of it over and over.

like why do i bother to collect my energy to do things for other people?
what is my motive?

the answer to my resounding question was so sweet to my mind.

for the love i have given out, for all the things that i do that was marked "made with lots of love",

I did all those things because i only hope to make them realize how much someone loves them and simply will never ever forget the things tat they have done.

look around you, can u feel the love someone who is trying to give to you?
or have u over look at those small things ppl ard u have done for u?

i hope people can feel the love i put in every gifts and every actions i did just to see a smile.
i hope they can feel loved.

i think all i need is just for the person to be always know that some where, someone actually bothers.

and one more thing.
i have also self-discovered that i don't really need people to "pay back the deeds" that i have done.

so can you feel it?
do u feel it?

trust in the love you feel,
trust in the love that's real..



JNZL

target

NOW I HAVE A TARGET!

WOO hoo!~ its definetly not easy to get one.
but my long lost old quarrel-buddy has re-surfaced.

tht is non oter than tht stupid nah chong sian. LOL.

i will pass my mid-yrs.

i will concentrate in all lessons irregardless of me finishing the homework or not.
i will do all homework
i will study hard for all tests.

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when things are back to place, i always wonder if it is just the words tht he said left me hopeless or is it just me that needs a secure arm to lie on.

it is always difficult to differentiate btw the right and the wrong.
however, work has blown the horn for me to report in full attention.

these things have to take a back seat.
well, its the choices u choose that makes you.

i know that its ok to make wrong choices, because i believe that one day, i will get it right, and make the right choice. but for now, pls keep supporting me.

i need 5000% of support.
miss you ming en.
JNZL

let me fly

let me fly, let me go.
cause i will know when to clip off my wings once i know it's time.

for now, things are already hushing down.
no more crazy dreams .although i still desire for it, but it getting lesser as the clock ticks by.
i know for sure it's just me, but i am not satisfied with it.

i want to fall, although it hurts but if i dun, i will never know.
so tell me once more, that i'm wrong
JNZL

dreams unspoken.

some dreams are meant to be shared.
but this time my dream that seems so real can't be spoken of.

it was so real, i wondered if i really slept...
anw, i went to Tampines 1 and bought items from urban write.

stood there for 2 whole hrs thinking of what i should buy , thinking abt colour combination...
its all worth it.

JNZL

shake ur body

hula hula!!!

me and ming en went to buy hula hoops today!!
OMGosh. its dam funny la, the way we tried to hoop it.

today, i studied dam hard i really hope i dun hav too much to catch up.
anw, tomorrow exco members are gonna announce the NEW exco members.

hope ger would be in.
anw, life has not been that bad.

its just constant thoughts and flashes tht keep swirling ard my mind.
to me, it is getting a little numb.

but i still believe that somehow some where i would be able to bump into him.
and m.e words are not gonna come true!!!!!

i think if tht person really reads my blogs and understand wth am i talking abt.
i think i would be on his no.1 miss list. hahaha

JNZL

part of my heart

what will happen. ohh what will i do..
JNZL

forbidden

this post. no one would understand and i hope no one does.

i feel so bad for having these thoughts.
i want it so much that there was a night when i kept thinking abt it.

but, it is probably me.just me.
my own wishful thinking . maybe it is an illusion.
maybe i read too much between the lines.
but i can no longer control my thoughts.it just surrounds it swirling round and round.

i know i can't say the truth about what i am thinking.
about my heart desire. it hurts so much to think about .

i feel so helpless.
however, its always my wishful thinking. it happened during secondary. i dun see why this would be an exception.

however, i am secretly hoping it will come true.




this is a situation where its forbidden.
if u bother to solve what the hell i am talking abt; the pictures are not there for decoration.

keep guessing. maybe u will get it.
JNZL

forbidden my dear

to ming en. although its tiring choosing foundation with her, but i just love her for her.

thank you DRY SPOT for all the smiles and laughter tht u donated to me.
although captain may be in a bad mood and did some things, but to me he is still the best captain i will ever have.

thank you greg for all the small things you have done for me.
those attention that you gave me meant so much, those small things like bowling with me when no one wants to. i know u were tired, and pretty busy frm those phone talks , but thank you for showing me that i am not that small pest ppl would do anything to avoid.

(i still find it demoralising that on thurs would be the final day i will probably see u ever agian.)
btw, i am like 100% sure he won't see this. sianzzzzz..

syjia will always be the one tht is ever supporting. love you to the MAXXX..

these ppl made me smile all day long!
of course nt forgetting peiwen and desiree.
>.>




JNZL

consequences of li-ji-mae

i am in a MESS MESS MESS right now. like seriously.
ok, this is due to my obession of il-ji-mae.

-.-
because i'm meeting my dear bestie later for dinner and guess what.
i didn't studied for physics test. cause he told me today was make up spa trial!

but!!! today he insisted tht today is the test.
like ARGHHH!!! i know i am suppose to prepare on that holiday!
but this isn't fair!

i am so dam pissed.
oh well, for this one hr plus i shall study maths.
i so dun wan to see mr gan disappointed face again.

i really don't.
wish me wisdom guys!

p/s: ali wans to run tomorrow. but i dun want! LOL.


JNZL