russian roulette

i dunno why nowadays i love to post youtube vids.
doesnt matter if ppl dun click on it.

i totally forgotten abt someone's blog which i always looked forward everytime when i was in JC.
to make it discreet, her name starts with S.

today , at 4.43am i dunnow what happen which made me suddenly remember her blog.
and i was reading her post one by one.

felt tht it had meaning in everything she said.
may be big words may be logic, may be other things.
it doesnt matter.

all of it happens to make me a better person.
read a mag called "HOT"
LOVE ANGELA JOLIE for being such a wonderful person. for being who she was. being truthful to ppl that surrounds you.

it hurts too deep to recall again.for the zillion times in my life. for this .  i have to say.

FUCK MY LIFE.

 be who you are and live your life like it should be, there are no other way round.
i always believe in that.

never waste life and try to say you love your life instead of fml.
i know its hard, but even the africans ppl are grateful to life when they have so little.

i always think that it would be the realest moment i could ever exp if i was just by their side doing salvation.

you know u cant change the world.
just do your part and it will do yourself good.

i always felt my life was like a game of russian roulette.
first bang 'didnt die' and you will nv know if the next stone which you fall may jolly well kill u.

i had

1st bang(f)
2nd bang (w)
3rd bang (J)

and i am not dead yet.
take a breath, close your eyes.
he said it may help.

like a blind man walking in the daylight with all the unknown and remember, dont fall again.
it may kill u the next time.

JNZL