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omg. i just found out or rather stumble upon this amazing girl grp with fantastic voices. ok i think they are noonas



JNZL

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I really really really really really want to go back to my real house and sleep on my real bed.

it sucks to sleep in my old hse.

because of it i get headaches everyday.

it really sucks.

i am forced to sleep at 9 plus because there is literally nothing else i can do after tht.

the maid sleeps in the computer room"great".

the TV remote is being kept to prevent berwin from watching.

i hav read all the magazines.

i feel that i have almost no more social life.

for this whole dam week. i didnt exercise.

-.- today is friday.

AND I WILL BE GOING BACK.

YES!YES!YES!

i will reveal to my dad to tell him that i will keep fit myself.

maybe on sat night.

EVERYDAY I TEXT DIONNE AND ESPECIALLY SK AND SUF.

WHY? because i dam it cannot sleep.

its not because i am not use to sleep so early.

i can sleep at literally anytime in my own rm. seriously. any time. i can just plop onto my bed and sleep.

plus. when i had bad diahhorea, they had no med.

T.T

i feel vvvvv uncomfortable there. i cannot make noise cannot on light cause scared they might wake up.

dont even bother to go into the part abt laundry. had so many probs.

JUST CANNOT MAKE SOUND LA! CANNOT MAKE PHONE CALLS as and when i want because i sleep with berwin and it will wake him up.so i had to whisper which annoys me to the maximum.

and i cant text cause the light is too bright and will ake him up.

its like torture.

maybe i will slim down from all these wtf stress which pops out frm nowhere.

the only gd thing is a promised dinner .

=.=

berwin sleeps at 8.45pm and wakes up at 5.45am everyday.

and he gets super playful and plays with the lights to wake me up . which makes me wanna kick him in the stomach . which i didnt bother to because my head hurts.

complaining seems whiney. i dunno la! everything i do there seems so out of place.

i dont even feel part of the family which is supposed to be.

my dad is the only one who i can talk freely too w/o me feeling weird.

talking to lena feels awfully weird.

even in the car.

ACTUALLY, the last straw came today.

i was hesistating if i shld continue.

but today morning, after tht playful berwin played with the lights and talking so loud. i really wonder if i shld care he sleeps well or not.

and my head hurts, my coughs wont stop, i got a bad stomach ache at night and no one actually can care.

i mean, i shld just knock on the door and tell them i got tummy ache?

-.- wadever.

i just feel weird WEIRD AND VERY VERY OUT OF PLACE.

in the morning i couldnt wake up at 7 am i find waking up so early really sucks~

at least let me wake up at 730am.

let me leave the hse at 815am

BUT NO!

even if the maid woke me up at 7am she i woke up at 740am because lena stormed into my room, shouting at me" why haven't u woke up yet? You are supposed to wake up at 7am and leave the house at 745am! but you are still here sleeping. You don't want to go to work is it?! then she close the door after seeing me getting up

and i rushed for no reason to get dressed and i got out of the hse at 8am.

and my dad asked if i shld drink coffee

i said ok and came out of the toilet. lena looked pissed so i just said it was ok and i just walked out of the hse.

i was almost bursting into tears la.

why is she like tht? plus at 12pm she even asked hoon if i came late EVEN though i smsed her when i reached office at 820am!

what does this shows?

i think i cried all the way until the mrt, even i even covered my eyes frm everyone in order to prevent  me looking purposely looking poor thing.

i felt so much injustice.

why use so harsh words? i mean getting up late to be dam early to reach office is really an offense?

i even apologise to her for not smsing her abt havin dinner.

its ok. i think i will just have to bear with it.

all those laughs.

do u all really think they are real?

JNZL

videos of korean idol.

Watching korean idol groups make me L-A-U-G-H like mad in office!

me and mingen was like HAHAHAHAHAHHA..

ok actually i was the one that laughed the loudest.

today we watched U-KISS vampire....

it is really dam funny! It is abt blood type i guess..

i think i really dun like AB? haha actually i dunno la.

but the actual reason why i even bothered to watch U-kiss IS BECAUSE I RAN OUT OF VIDS TO WATCH >.>

dang! the variety show have to wait!! argh! this is the reason why i dun like to watch shows tht have not end yet!.

haha.

ONE MORE THING BEFORE I END OFF.

i am really glad i no longer have to urge or the burning desire to know what about other people comment.

it start from resisting , prevent myself like think abt what will happen if i do it and since the consequences worsen my day and i dont get anything good out of it. I just stop . wonderful isnt it?

and i no longer care what happens to ppl i dun care. and i am really glad with myself that i manage to picture someone conquering me and laugh at it. i mean i am not going on a battle or war or u know anything serious. its just mental and dislike. emotions to sumarize.

i ama  big girl now.

so i am going to be one .

it takes a big heart to forget.

it takes a bigger heart to forgive.

these words arnt that big! my chinese teacher and my GP teacher kinda told me that.

well, i think now, i only have a big heart.

not really big though, but it STILL COUNTS.

maybe it shld be like this.

It takes a big brain to ignore.

It takes a bigger brain to forget.

YEAH!!!~~~ I ROCKS AT CREATING THINGS LIKE THT!! WOO HOO~

I AM A HAPPY GIRL NOW.

JNZL

kpop muacks!!

2AM!!

ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

frm left: chang min, seulong ,jo kwon, jing woon

AHHH!!!!!! ITS the beastly 2PM!!

CAN YOU FEEL MY HEART BEAT HEART BEAT. yeah~

my fav two!

the two extreme left.

woo young and (white) jun ho. (ps he really looks like the younger version of rain)

jun ho second frm the left and woo young secod from the right.

jun ho second from the top left and woo young the top right.

BROWN EYED GIRLS!

my lovely GA-IN is the one wearing PINK!

love love woo young! he has such a calm and cute~ personality!! u must see idol shows on youtube or wild bunny!! on youtube la.the looks like one big baby.

hahaha.. the bottom is JUN HO.

he is the one who is sooo poorthing la. kena cut from the show for wild bunny first epi he only hav 15 sec.

but he sure can dance! he does flips the best!! really.

.

this shld be woo young. hahahahaha...

LOVE IDOLS IN HANBok

SNSD!!! I LOVE TAEYEON AND TIFFANY.

second row first and the last. taeyeon is first and tiffany is second.

btw, m.e love jessica which is the last row , first girl.

first row. first is tiffany and the second is TAEYEON!(leader)

tht's all for now!

love LOVE LOVE watching We got married. couple(jo knwon frm 2am and ga-in from brown eyed girls)

JNZL

several past events

MY LOVE FOR GA-IN!!! ahhhhhh... love her coarse voice. love her shortness love her eyeliner eyes love her hair. plus love her hip movements in abracadabra.

when i was making a card for the birthday boy!the rm is seriously in a mess huh.

when going out with dionne and

her bestie!

cute three shots of sy jia! we had lunch after bowling.

lol.. Gregory.

alicia! see ! i promised to delete those unglam ones. =))

clubbing at rebel!!!!

er.. just mud mask? HAHA

my poor hamster pui bong got eye infection.

my new bags! nice right? er. actually they look okok.

my new hello kitty wallet! er i wanted to use it for chinese new year. but forgot. -.-

PRETTY HAIR CLIPS AND HAIR BANDS.they were a gift !. ok. only the hair bands. cost $10 for 4 hairbands. and another 10 bucks for 4 hairclips.

bo bong!! my next hamster! the tamer one out of the two. oh btw tht's wei hao hand. he helped me to take out the hamster..

i seriously tried my best to take a beter pic. oh well.

clubbing with dionne at zouk on CNY!

JNZL