wasted

this is exactly what i felt when i was doing my chem at expo with vin.
i look like a total fool. ppl literally thinks tht i was reading my notes upside down!

oh btw, thanks alvin for teachin me chem. it sure was very helpful.guess its my payment for lugging his bowling bag frm all the way frm cbc to my hse.

and btw, i offered ben and jerry voucher to my teacher and she say dun want. =(
why is everybody losing fat nowadays.
bloody hell my teacher is SKINNY CAN! arghhh

today or rather tonight, i feel quite out of place.
due to the amt of work done which is seemingly disturbing to me.very disturbing in fact.
its too little at an alarming rate and possibly i could fail all test -.-

hah!! TYS TYS.. BLOODY TYS. ATTTACK ATTTAACCCKKKK ATTTTACCCKK!!

oh! btw, i think if there was extra training, it would be ubeeerrr goood. but due to the fact tht funds may be insufficient because bowling seems insignificant in MJC.=.=

oh, guys! i got some news. MJC has a 800-900 intakes of new J1S. the normal intake according to my tutition teacher it shld be 600. shucks!!! tht means no space for studying!!!

wadever man joey, like u ever study in sch 24/7 like tht. even if there was space ur butt will not be there. so stop pretending tht u are gonna lose a piece of meat like tht.

oh well. i'm gona make a plan with xue er, to run 4km for starters?(like as if 2.4km was peanuts. -.-)i gotta start right.. like somewhere.. think of it was training for bowling. need stamina ma.

life gonna be uber madness now..

JNZL

all engines start!

life is sooooo gonna spin ard me like either i am running at the speed or sound or the other way round..

i am sooo happy with myself caused this is actually the first time i enjoyed my short sch holidays. i didn't care a hoot abt homework until last night where i mugged for my econs.

but other than tht, nth was done. =)))))
thanks to syfiaq my best vulguar mate, i picked this up frm him and rather enjoyed myself being a sloth these 2 days!!! yippee!!!!

now, i am all power packed to face my 4Ds..
DESIRE . DETERMINATION . DECISION . DISCILPLINE

all geared up and vroom vrrroommm!!!!!
(joey happily skips away in a funny manner)

JNZL

bride wars

INTRODUCING!!!!! BRIDE WARS!!

this movie reminded me of so many friendship obligations!i had sooo many flashbacks while watching this movie. some were good, some were hurtful, some were doubtful..

will i ever have a friend tht be bestie tht will stand by me for another ten plus more years and moreee? its not actually a qn. =)
sometimes, u just need a girl to just be by ur side and help u pick out dresses tht will make u look fab and not those superfical comments.

wouldn't it feel great if u had a similar outfit tht both of u look fab in and wear it to some party or some things which u are not in the lime light.(just participating those kinds of situations)
when u and ur bestie, saw the same dress, would u give in?
its gets complicated.. both of u want to have the same thing but u knew tht only one of u gonna have it...

but true friends dun really have a matter in tht. so far i saw all close friends having similar tastes, so is it fated?? 0.0
finally, frm this movie
:" u may find ur happiness in anybody, may it be ur spouse, ur mom or dad. But deep down , u know that there is always someone who is willing to share all ur woes.tht someone is just so near to you.he or she has been standing by your side."

JNZL

thinking

after i re-read boxy blog. -.-
pls dun say i got nth to do. its a spur of the moment thing and pls dun get angry if i do k.

after re-reading all boxy's past posts, well...
i dun really remember the past now.. although only a few mths passed after the horrible incident but, to me, it seems miles and miles and miles and miles away from me.

when you look over the vast sea, what would u think? it made me think of boxy and i felt like

"its over now isn't it.it is now past tense already .the pain, the anguish i felt, all seem so vague.i can't really remember them now.its a good thing i guess."

a lesson learned in life with a heavy price tag. just like my prev post , i said i was goin to look up in the sky at the end of the day and let out a big sigh....
life is well, i dunno how to phrase it.

oh btw, if u guys might be thinking what my brain answered, with no sense of IQ NOR EQ,
my brain said" life is only at its best when u are sleeping. you know it joey. u know it."

sry guys, i may have totally ruin ur perfect pic of how high my eq was.hahahaa.
but at least i dun gay kiang and cock up one lame shit reason right. i shared with u all the truth without sugar coating..



this song reminded me of boxy. dear ppl, this is not abt my love life , its just tht this song reminds me of boxy.

JNZL

zoom

ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM....
i'm feeling this right now..

i need to settle those jobs i offered to my peers, with all those resumes and rushing them to give, me and making a checklist so tht i dun screw up..

this was the reason, i ignored smses frm rudico, m.e and dad..
or rather, i replied like ubbbeerrrr sloow. sorry sorry. everytime my mind would be occupied my sch sch sch and more sch stuffs..

on sat went a whole day of shopping with me. to help her choose her clothes. stupid left feet hurt like #$%^&..... recovering.

today, was so bloody tired due to my leg and i slept till 5pm.. sort of.
not all at one go though.
then plus night time, i got reunion frm my dad side and went to pp to settle some stuffs.


REACHED HM AT 10PM.there goes my time for doing work..
i'm screwed but luckily i remembered abt the phys e-learning.

I READ SY JIA BLOG then i realise abt it. -.-
plus added more stress to me cause i nv do work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want to do work. but alicia told me to sleep.
so i will.

JNZL

stresssss

i'm soo freaking stress right now tht i swear tht more hair is coming frm between my mouth and nose!!! so maybe this pose will relieve my stress everytime i look at it..

i think its so funny can.




a pic taken when we were passing her birthday cake and presents in her hse
THANK you sy jia for getting me those presents for my birthday plus christmas!!!
although its late, but better than never right??

i have offically spend more than an hour looking at ppl's bloggie..(btw captain, i found ur blog!!)

i doubt he will ever see my post.. i think he will NEVER see my post. -.-

plus downloading the software for my olympus camera. yeah i know its very late for tht, but i was to lazy top do it before..

CASPIA!!! I WANT THT ECLIPSE BK!!!
pls pls pls be free tomorrow. T-T

i am intending to reward myself by reading tht book.
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this is the 2nd day of sch, and me and my bowling mates are like chiong-ing our work like tomorrow is our midyrs or final yrs exams..

this is very ridciculous, but i am not unhappy abt it, cause since when my life had made any sense at all?!

we ate at EIGHTEEN CHEFS!!! (suf, i was wrong abt the food. it taste nice and cheap!)
student meal was like $6.40 and includes a maincourse, one ice-cream and one ice-lemon tea..

i shall eat tht during the weekends when i can enjoy some sunshine of my own life.

me and ming en have already said tht we will be like thomas, wake up, eat shit study and the cycle will go round.

at times, there will be bowling added into my lifeless list.

somehow, seeing sy jia and ming en so hardworking and seeing charles kan jiong face when it comes to study, PLUS my new form teacher telling us tht j2 is the worst phase of his life..

mind you. he said worst!!!
how horrible can it get when a teacher said it so bluntly.

everybody ard me tells me the same shit.well, i believe it now.
i believe i believe tht even if this j2 way of life is going to drive me mad or insane till i have to bang myself against the wall to see if its real, i'm willing to take up this responsibility .

its not all big talk and all bullshit.
i will stick to blogging during weds and week-ends .
hmmm.. how did syjia manage to be so focus?she sooo determined .. i'm like jelly-fish..

wadever to those comparison.
if i'm goin to be in this shit for 8mths.. if i'm going to jump down frm a building during mid-yrs, so be it.

at least i will do it. (like there's any other choice)
EVEN IF THIS HELLISH 8MTHS is going to be like this, i still have ming en , suf and all my dumbasses supporting me.

esp my dad.
tht's the reason why i wun surrender to these..

JNZL

queensway

LADIES AND GENTLE MEN, Let me introduce my new shoe of 2009!!!!

NIKE PEGASUS 25


i wanted to buy the shoe on the right, apparently everybody thinks like me. =.=
so it was OOS. even in queensway shopping centre, almost all shops said it is OOS.

i was like, is tht shoe uber-cheap or is it like giving freebies like crazy when u buy tht model.
but anw, looking on the bright side, its for flat-foot(reminds me of zy) and i'm not flat-foot..

btw, i wanted to buy the asics shoe!!! but again, everywhere is OUT-OF-STOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
even when u have money, u can't buy the things u want. and it is frustrating!!

so was it blessing in disguise? cause i only know abt it after looking at the borchure after i left the shop. =))
look at this logo, so cool right.. and it is compatible with ipod.
so niceee..

next up on my shopping list:
1. picture card for my cam
2.apple device for my nike shoe.

p.s alvin i not buying so many things, i am going to save and buy those items like in june? cause got IT fair ma. =))

tomorrow is sunday, which marks the last day of holiday.
and sunday is also the day where caspia is going to lend me her eclipse book!!! yeah! somethign to look forward to.

jnzl

long-lost photos

dumb ass mind's cafe..
i knew it tht this would be the last meeting of 2008. hahaha. sorry guys if i upload this photos like uber-slow.

i just remembered these photos when i view my camera photos without the memory card. =)

SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!

yc told us this is his sec4 hair cut. i still like his poly hair cut! hahahahahahaha
FINALLY I Have found a way to upload these photos.

i think i am like soooo dumb. i forgot can use cable to retrive the photos frm my camera internal memory..

all these photos are taken on sy jia ballet concert day!!!
SAY HI TO ALVIN!!!!!

i love to play games with dumb ass cause it gives me a feeling, like being in a family and it feels real good. =D

jnzl

mask on.

i have taken off my mask for too long. its ugly.

Now look at me,
tell me now: what do you see?
Oh, behind the mask...
there's a girl who used to cry.

and everyone knws tht they are fragile and all tht. i showed it too often .
i am showing the whole world tht i'm just a crackpot old fool for too long. everybody thinks i'm comfortable in my own skin.

well, i have come to realise tht i feel so uncomfortable being me.its not some bright glowing skin u will see,and neither is it some shiny soulful eyes which can tell u stories after stories.

its only hollow eyes with only 2 stories to tell.

its time i put back on my mask.
and maybe when the time is ripe, i will put it down and probably be alone looking up into the sky or ceiling and letting out a very big sigh tht only signals something.

its not the emotions tht i'm disgusted. but how ppl sees me tht make myself feel disgusted.
to ppl, i am joey the stupid fool.

but yes. sch is coming and i need to put it on.not the same mask as jc1.
but a new fresh mask which brings in one emotion which i hate.

it is ignoring.
no, u are wrong, its not ignoring ppl.tht's j1 mask.
i am going to ignore my feelings. its the only way to survive.

surely but slowy, ur words will kill me.its not tht u didn't know.its tht u think its right to do it.
time will tell if the path i'm treading on will lead me to doom or empty happiness.

there's no happy ending this year.this is going to be me.

lastly,
i hope u are prepared.

JNZL

although this is not the mv, but i just like to see the lyrics apperaing. btw, i have played this song on my ipod like a gazillion times..

i love the song as it is very very meanigful..
it taught me tht since it is daylight once more and tht i actually didn't die. so i shld be happy.
no matter what, the earth will still rotate and sunrise will once again re-appear.

hence, all the problems all actually very small.because i lived to see the sunrise!

JNZL

shop! + study

i bought all these frm montip. i really thought i anti tht shop due to some personal issues.

anw, i think tht the quality of the pic is quite good. due u agree? >.>
these are the back to sch items!!!

this face massger is good. it least it feels good. =)

thanks suf for paying for me first.haha.. there were so many funny things tht happen in this japan shop. =.=

this "kiaper" is actually for the fringe. for those of u who dun normally shop online, its to make the fringe curl in nice nice.. but i have yet to try its "power" hope its good!!!

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today i revised chapt 3 of physics.. finally .it feels so distant to me...and for chem, due to me studying it first, it feels distant too. like i've lost touch.

oh anw, went to see shoes for sch. the acsic shoes were too exp!! like $246 for the shoe!!!well, considering the brown and green addidas shoe.which apparently cost $119.

well, do u think i should go to queenstown in search for shoes? is it worth it? ppl give comments to me k..

tomorrow its study day again..i realise i usually dun hav any plans for night. due to ming en's schedule book. i am inspired to do work at night too!!! be happy for me k.. i'm getting all the good influences..

i want so many dresses.. i wan so many shoe. i wan so many bags. but i no money. T-T

when there were two, it felt alright. when there were three, it will feel great if u gave more constructive comments..alright. time to watch jj vids.

jnzl

shopping

SHOPPING HAS NV BEEN THIS INTENSE!!!!
(ON WED)

me and ming en trying all ways to lie to ourself tht singapore is a cool country so tht we can buy these fab jackets.

i seriously think tht " how may i help you?" these words would come out of her mouth. literally.

this dinosaur object is made out of drift wood AND it is in VIVO CITY

btw, just to update u guys. national georaphic has opened a HUGE shop in vivo and it rocks!!!

without flash , it would hav looked like this. see how dimly lighted this place is?

BTW, THIS GIANT FIGURINE COST LIKE $4K PLUS.

conversation

joey: eh ,if buy already put where sia.

m.e: put carpark lo!!

joey: LOL. then the dino bigger than hse,can't even put in. so lame..

oh, btwi have bought 2 dresses!!! and one small black jacket.. wee~~

the 2 dresses were digged ut frm forever 21 and tht was the place where me and ming en spent the most time at.

we were like somesort of treasure hunter and like literally looking for treasures. i found mine.

although there are discounts, but mine was like $51 and $39.
plus one jacket found at vivo , called thirty seven degree( remember the place suf?)

yeah. so i pok gai. bought my black and yellow addidas bottle too. wanted to buy the black and yellow. but it is a men cutting!!! drats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finding new shoes..

PRESENTING: my new scarf!!!

Today, i went for bowling league. it was good!! one stupid lame uncle called adrian, kept wanting pin 10 due to betting reasons and he got all 10 pins instead.

(all the time too!)

-.-

my highest score for the day was 172!! wee~~

got to know another friend. called kwek bon ___ lol..

plus 30 points for handicap, i won one of them!!

JNZL

similar

I PRESENT TO YOU!!! MY NEW SEXY BAG!!! WOO~~~

Dear all, dun u think this bag looks pretty.well, i bought it at CS with ming en.

we are... BIRDS OF A SIMILAR KIND..
We liked the same design, as always.. haha, but we often go for different colours..

although i presume tht she and i will not mind buying the same kind, but we will just choose different colours.. sometimes, the colours are close..

i tell u, we took like half an hr or longer to choose the colour of our bags. there were only 3 colours.

I FINALLY GOT MY COLOUR.a lighter shade than ming en.her's is like a darker brown.
we were like so troublesome. can't make up our minds and i think the auntie there was sweet.

next time, if there is some good items up for sales, i would definetly patronise her again. =)
till next time..

differentiation. here i come.

JNZL

derick's birthday

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY DERICK!!!!

dear derick. thanks for always being there for me when i need an IT friend. you are always so funny in ur expressions!!!

HAPPY TO KNOW YOU SINCE SEC 3.well, its not everyday someone turns nineteen so make full use of it. DUN STAY AT HM K!!

luckily u have sch.. enjoy ur very special day!

btw, derick my friend is a very professional writer. if u wanna read a novel cause u hav extra free-time to rot, read his!

derick's novel(CLICK TO ACCESS) =)

jnzl

Shoppin with 250 dollars

SHOPPING PARADISE WITH MONEY!!!!!!!

Money never taste as sweet until today. when i finally shop withs guts. cause money is power.
i bought a dress, a scarf and two socks.

i didn't bother taking photo because i will take them all at one go.i am sooooooooo gona buy the bag at CENTURY and buy cotton on jacket.

then shop for a dress then consider goin to queenstown i my mom can't puke out the extras for my sexy addidas shoe. which is balck in colour and yellow stripes.

ok, went out with suf, cas and m.e was super tiring . btw, they both cut hair.

THANKS CASPIA FOR LENDING ME THE ECLIPSE.

=DD

jnzl

NEW MOON

i have finally read finish these 2 books.. i definately got to agree tht the bks are much better than the movie

plus, i can't believe tht i cried during the ending part of New moon. i was great. plus i had real characters to imagine abt so tht made it more dramatic and less wordy.

every word i read came into action and i imagined as if it was real. thanks to the movie. =D
next on would be eclipse!!! maybe rudi can borrow it frm his collegue and let me read. well, if i'm lucky enough to lay my hands on a new one. i wouldn't mind.

but seems like everything is out-of-stock now. which is FRUSTRATING!!!!

eclipse. the turning point. finally edward with .. ISABELLA. i loove you!!!!!!!!!!

inspired frm sj again, how can i be so dumb to sleep in the day.ppl can like 11hr study and u are pathetically struggling. ok its time.

JNZL

new pencil box for 2009

PRETTY AND SEXY PENCIL BOX..

i love it at first sight. cause it is glossy. good day today cause did funny things and meaniful things wif my bestie ming en. =)

a better day tomorrow, when i get my work done. =)

maybe i should learn frm sufi to do my work before KO-ing and start being less lazy..
NEW MOON is waiting for my eyes to stare at its contents! i can literally hear it scream
:" OI! READ ME! " HAHA..

2009

this is ming en hand. =) stanford raffles in blue is behind sufi.

what i could read was "yishun sux in mumbai"wth! it totally makes ZERO ZERO sense

this bus is so hard to get please!! we walked like #$%^&* meters to get to the previous busstop.and just for this empty bus, my feet hurts like #$%^& cause i was wearing high-heels and i walked very far and long.

this was the situation when me, ming en and sufian had to walked to get to a location. btw, it has no empty spaces if u noticed. this is how crappy cramp it was.. and all of us was like.. heng singapore population not like CHina...=D

this was him when he tried his best to act the torture scene.

this pic should win some awards..

reason: this pic was taken when i put my camera flash so near his eyes when he was turning.

and flash it when he turned.

me:(shocked) huh?! i thought u knew i was going to flash

ming en: omg. why u never close ur eyes...

sufian: ARGH!!!!!

i'm sorry sufian. i didn't know. =(

i was tryin to take a photo of ming en's hello kitty orange gummy tht her friend gave her.

i bet my old canon camera can do a better job..

this was the place where we sat =)
crowd and SQUEEZE!!!!!!!
crap ming en! we forgot to see if they kissed at 12am! HOW COULD WE!!!!

haha.. for u guys information, we spotted those two as they were hugging each other like titantic to see the scenery and they even hold each other waist.. lie on the shoulder etc.. i know girls do tht. but GUYS?!

i took a deep breath. i looked into my com and think..

pictures on my head were : rudi, school and boxy(a new name given to a person i know)which was inspired by the movie seven pounds..

ok.. firstly, 2008 was a really CANNOT MAKE IT YEAR. so this year it is a CAN MAKE IT YEAR.

do u know. for the first time in my life. i have a new year resoultions. cause i always thought tht it was useless and i thought i will probably not stick to it. so i didn't bother doing it.

THIS YEAr.i wrote it down.due to some complications which i met which inspired me to be a better person and not an asshole.

be happy for me k. its not really easy for me to change as i always love myself too much and i nearly always neglect ppl.in short. selfish.

u know carol, my best friend since. -.- pri 4. she and lim hee told me this one day: JOEY! WE WILL NOT BE FRIENDS WITH U UNLESS U STOP SAYING ANY VULGARITIES in hokkien.

this encounter is still very vividly appearing in my mind every now and then.they said it to me during pri5.i like them so much tht i really stop speaking vulgarities.it surprises me how easily i can change in times of needs.

i love carol so much because she was the first and only one who dared to scold me. which made me happy cause ppl who scolded me somehow land into some sort of trouble. not tht i planned it but it just happens.what a weird childhood.

anyway. i think if i were to consistently do work. i would like it.

=)

my last day of 2008 was well spend.my first day of 2009 was also very well spent.

i hav finally almost done with rudi present. its just how am i suppose to arrange them together. its just so DIFFICULT!!

=)

be happy alright. cause i am too. if things make u cry and not die. it will only make u stronger,no matter who did it , i am sure tht person didn't mean it. good luck boxy.

JNZL